Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Depression

I'm supposed to be asleep by this hour. However my mind has been swirling in this abyss called "Depression"

Yes, I'm very depressing at the moment, regarding how I know my mind has been playing a trick on me with all the negative thoughts, low esteem and the fact that I haven't been doing anything productive. It is like there is a lock on my so called talent or potential you may call it, which has been limiting my own growth and sealing my potential in a tiny little box.

I can't seem to recall why or when is this happened, or am I the one lock it away when I was trying to throw away my naiveness while growing up to be a decent adult. I have realized that I'm probably the one who put up this lock and I need to remove it in order to grow more than what I am now. But it doesn't work out as I thought it should *ARGH!!* It looks like to remove a lock is harder than you lock it up *tear* Or perhaps, I just din't try hard enough *damn it*

Now that I'm letting out all of this by writing this post, releasing myself for just a bit. So that when I wake up tomorrow morning, I'm going to tell myself "A Good Day" and make my tempt to tear off the lock, even though it is going to take awhile. I just have to try harder and harder.

Talent, Potential, please wait for me. I'll be there soon enough to rescue you from this sealed box.

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